slow moving but ever changing

my focus in life is to create my "best life ever". in doing so I want to experience moments with great joy, an open mind and just be.  what I am learning is that I am constantly learning.  I do not always feel happy or joyous but I do try to be grateful and learn something so I can create more of what I enjoy and experience less of what I do not. I also realize this process is slow. very slow sometimes. I can be in a "funk" for hours & days (used to be weeks/months when I was depressed).  I also realize my wants, needs, likes and dislikes are ever changing.  What I enjoyed to pass the time away two years ago is different than now. Also I am not as eager to try new things as I get older. Although I want to something deep down holds me back. I think that something is fear and doubt.  Which brings me back to my best life ever.  With fear and doubt creeping in I am not living my best life ever. Fear and don't are uneasy emotions where as joy is a highly satisfying emotion.  This conundrum is ever so frustrating and sometimes heartbreaking. Alas today is just another day. and as I continue on my quest for my best life ever I have added a quest to squash doubt & fear from my life. one day at a time.

Money for Nothing

I recently signed up for Ebates. This is truly an easy way to earn money if you are planning on shopping. I can see how some may go a little overboard - but for me I love it because I only shop when necessary so when I am shopping for a particular item I go there first to see if the store participates. it is so easy!
If any one is reading it and you have not checked it out sign up!

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sunshine & warmth

last week I vacationed to a warmer climate that was predominately sunny. When I came back and it was 20 degrees below average and 30degrees colder than my vacation spot I had an ah-ha moment. I often observe that people in NY are cold, self-absorbed and rude. So when I was in FL where there are a ton of transplants and snowbirds I was expecting the same only to be met with smiling, warm and engaging individuals.  Ah-ha! The weather and climate has a direct effect on not just mood but personality! Think about it - when someone is on vacation they often come back and say they are refreshed because they are resetting there mood.  But If they were to live there long term their entire mindset will shift and essentially the personality will shift.  It is amazing.  I would love to move soon because I am so over the cold, self-absorbed and rude.

happy st.patricks day - aka my half birthday

It is finally showing signs of spring after the bitter cold winter we are having. It is only 3 days until spring and the fun, laughter and drunkenness of St. Patrick's day reminds me that there are warm day's ahead. So for those who celebrate - enjoy!

so I never really got into the blogging on the regular but I am finding myself reading many different ones daily, or at least on my days off so decided to dust this off and write on the regular. although there is no theme per say it will be about daily life. mostly.